And on eve of a new year...

ugh

need sleep, but had to make entry... oh god, need sleep.

New CD

I just got the new Rammstein CD, and it is fucking awesome!!!! It is intense, beautiful, and a little warped at times. God do I love it!

Now that that's done with....

Time to return to the normal drudgery of life. In other words, keep poisoning the cats and having se... Oops, wrong thought. I mean, back to work and time to pay all the credit card bills for all that gift giving. The regret will set in soon, and around Easter we'll start taking down the lights.

yup...

santa came...

well...

SANTA IS COMING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Santa!!!

I can't wait to see my presents under the tree... or whatever. Maybe I'll get nothing... Oh well, I wasn't very good anyway.

Well...

That was interesting. Kinda like, "I know what you're going to say, so I want to make you say it so that now I can be mad at you." And now it's morning... Only a few more days until Santa!!!

never mind... i'll write something when it comes to me

Closer...

The time is fast approaching when that fat man in red comes and gives us presents... Yup

mmmmm....

Okay, done work... time to wrap gifts.

Ah, nothing like it in the world...

A piece of.... And a taste of blasphemy!!! Good night

Ahhh, if only I didn't need money....

I could have off tonight. Nope... I need the money. Well, there are some good things about working tonight... and then there's the work.

WOW....

um.... Hey, i want x-mas presents!!!! I want expensive things and toys and shit I can play with!!! I want cool shit that will occupy my time and mind in constructive... fuck that... I want a redhead.

Finally

Today I got a little good news... But I'll tell you all about it some time in the future. Until then, time to shave the traditional yak!

A few words....

1... Who the fuck really does want a Charlie in the box?! 2... If your squirt gun shoots jelly, then maybe it was just filled wrong. 3... If your toy boat sinks, it's got a hole in it! 4... Finally, ever notice how Santa seems like he's a card carrying member if the KKK with the whole, "It's a shame he's not like the rest of the Aryan reindeer."

fullfilment

Need to get so many things done for so many people... Like now I'm working on copying a tape to cd for this guy... then I have to burn a few cds... for about a dozen people... and I'm tired. I want to watch a movie and be lazy... ok.

Today's word...

Today I am in a hopeful and depressed mood. Let's not go too much into it, just that that's it.

so tired, but I need to stay...

It get's difficult... I need to hear... god, i've been so.... before delirium hits...

Ahhh...

Nothing like watching the Greatest Christmas movie ever made!!! Miracle on 34th Street is really the best thing about the holiday season.

One

I think it is well known that I am not pleased how things have turned out for me. Tonight, as I was driving home and I was thinking how easy it could be to just veer off and hit the guard rail at about seventy... tear up the passenger side and so one.... Solving a lot of my problems.... Instead, I drove home safe and sound.

ya' gotta be kidin' me!

it's bet time already? fuck, where did the god damned day go!!!!

Ummmm

Need to get ready for the day.... and whatever else.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG!

Today a man is dead for no better reason than being a rock star.... I have nothing to say.

Need a nap.

Wake me up when it's time to go to work. Thanks.

Ok, who did it?

I wanna know who's fault it is! C'mon... Someone here is the guilty party, and no one is leaving until I find out who it was.

It is time...

To go grocery shopping... And get poison to feed the kitties!!!

Why is it?

I get this strange letter, and I wonder what it's all about because I have my email out for pen pal things, right? So someone emails me, and I think maybe it's legit since there is not sex ad in it... Only now I get a letter from someone and they are from Russia looking for a husband and friend from America.... Should I consider this something to write back to, or just drop altogether?

The Happ's, man...

Okay, so I need to get some new stuff on the website... will do this week.... And I need to get in touch with my publisher... Book will be out by January, and I'll start taking advance orders when I figure out that shit... Oh my god, my head will explode now for no apparent reason... Catch the pieces like a pinata!

very tired....

need to update... then sleep.

There is nothing like...

I love the horror movie/slasher movie thing. Makes you feel good to be alive...

not interested

I think I'm tired. I should was dishes... and maybe finish laundry....

there are times when....

there are those strange moments where everything is really good, and nothing could possibly be wrong... and then you wake up and realize you're still fucked!

I am so tired

I didn't exactly get enough sleep, and I have a long lunch ahead of me.... Oh well. I'm ready to have a few days off now.

Fuck....

So, aside from working my fourth double in a row... I feel good about a few things. I think I'm out of my cure mood... And someone did a really nice and helpful thing for me tonight that may effect my future in a positive way... We'll see, but it's nice to have some one who thinks of you.

I need to get out

I really don't want to do today...

ever wonder what happened to it all?

I was contemplating things today, and I was wondering what I am going to do when I realize that it's all shit. I wonder what I will do if I suddenly realize that it's all nothing I want any way.