How long do I let this go before writing in this again? How long do I fucking forget about this? And then I feel guilty about not writing here? No, not really. I feel like I should maintain this better, but I probably won't.
Okay, enough about that shit. I have been suffering what I would call a lack of motivation. Is it depression? Who fucking knows.All I know is that I have been starting to revise and edit what will likely be the next book that I will unleash upon the world. Perhaps this will explain why I'm writing here. This is a distraction form a tedious task that I am not always happy when I doing. First off, I have to remain sober, and that fucking sucks. Secondly, I'm looking at the past of my work and seeing that after years of work, I am not making a fucking penny off of my work. I mean, sure I sell books, but if I did the math I think I would find that I make about .0001 cent per hour of work per year of sales compared to work.
Sobriety and tea... really, if I could make a nice living just writing, I would be fine with the work part. I mean, being creative and making the first draft is fun, and the best part. After that, even if some of the book was work to write in the first place, I now have nearly another year's worth of revising and editing before the book is anywhere near ready to be printed.
Okay, distraction over for now...
