it's the ones you really don't expect that are the killers. Things like my dad sending me religious fucking shit in my email... expected and deleted with out a second thought. My mother being a total drunk and waste of human life, expected even in I didn't want to admit it. And then there are the things you don't expect... like being shredded when instead all you wanted was something that made you feel like you had reason. I have spent a lot of time thinking about why this life of mine is absolutely worthless, and it is really. then something comes along and it made me feel like things were right... looking better and all that shit. I could breath and smile... and then what should happen? dropped from the better back to here. welcome to my fucking world. I hope your suffering, because at least I can enjoy that a bit. ...it won't stop, it wants me dead... god damned this noise inside my head...
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