whatever....

time to rethink shit.... still pissed... not happy... started a new therapy... se where it goes.

gonna remain calm....

and not kill anyone... actually, yesterday was a bit on the productive side, so I feel kinda okay...

too tired

just a quick "fuck off" tonight... i'm tired...

Obsessions...

So, I said fuck you, and did you care? Most wouldn't. Thinking about having a few drinks before work, but I'm actually trying to be better to myself... and I need to make my beer last for 2 weeks... So I have to say that every day I have become more and more pissed about shit! I'm actually pissed at a certain group that I'll smile to and pretend I am all happy with and shit... And who knows who it was who actually said the things that have me pissed... makes me wonder. To top it off, I feel like I've become obsessed with a person who I may be rather pissed at as well... I keep waking with her in my head... there really is no fucking point to it... no use....

Fuck you's seem to be in order...

So it seems that people just have no idea of what it means to hurt a person! You ever been told something to your face, and then find out later that everyone else got a completely different story? Well a big Ol' fuck you to those who didn't have the fucking balls to just tell me the god damned truth!!! well, not that I fucking know, I have to say that I felt the same, but now I'm fucking pissed because you couldn't just fucking say so!!!! This world has really pissed me of these past few weeks, and I really wish I could pay it back for this shit!!! Maybe one person at a fucking time...

suicide note in lego...

so I couldn't help but find that funny... here I am, 28, and still here in this life of shit. I'll be here at 29, serving at this fucking hole, alone and whatever... ever just wish you could hit the stop button?

Tits....

Why are we so enamored with tits? I love them, and I want to see as many as possible... But why? Even when I could care less to touch the body attached to them, why do I want to see them so badly?

jesus in my heart...

Yeah right... if they find any thing in my heart it'll be the fat from all those fucking chicken fingers!!! I'm drunk... wanna have sex? I've got a bag for my face? no? well , i didn't wanna fuck you anyways you god damned cunt!!!!

fragments...

I think I've got a new idea... something without purpose....

done...

goodbye... to those still paying attention...

yup

done with that shit... think I made a good choice...

the secret place....

found a new place to drink... and it was nice to get the fuck away from those people... or whatever. I was away... and it felt good.

wow

what a cunt...

the end

free... free from this fucking thing I made... now I understand why god made jesus.

the gun Idea

you know, I have some good ideas... bullet number one would go to the cunt who first ratted me out. ironically, i act all concerned and shit about her and her pregnancy, but if it were not fo the guy who is father, and the respect I have for him, I would fucking put an ax through her skull.... bullet #2 would go through that weasly mother fucker's face.... god, I reall want to kill some people!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is...

I'm going to be closing it all down soon...

so on

and the deconstruction continues... not that any of you could really give a fuck...

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I know you were fucking laughing... I hope you enjoyed it!

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I know you fucking laughed... Well I hope you enjoyed it!

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I know you laughed... and fuck you. I hope you fucking enjoyed it!

FUCK YOU!!!!!

So you know, I realized a lot today...and one of those things was that I realized was that none of you give a good god damned fuck what I have to say... so fuck you all for your apathy... this site of mine is done. I'm closing it all up... good fucking bye,,,,

hand washing clothes...

I hate using bleach... and on a side note... I bought condiments today. nothing to really tell about. now I'm going to sip some mint tea and chill for a bit... enjoy my respite.