"sometimes I like to pretend..."

Vodka sitting here in a glass... I always wonder what I'll do about getting the next drink.  I wasn't always like this.  I think I feel a lot is falling apart, and the ideologies I was always told meant something have all tarnished.  I sit here alone and desperately I fear sobriety when I'm alone.  It wasn't always like this.

With age comes wisdom, but what have I become wise about other than the simple fact that I know nothing.  But I have learned a lot.  When I was younger I thought that I was wise for the fact that I was more open minded that those around me, but I learned that it meant shit.  Open mindedness left me open to idea to help me become wise, but was it a sort of wisdom that made me keep an opened mind?  No.  I think it was more a matter of curiosity that kept my mind so open.

I'm watching this video by a couple of guys, brothers actually, that I met years back.  The video was recorded in Holland, so they seem to be doing pretty well.  Perhaps one day I'll do a book signing in Holland, but I see this as a very unlikely situation.

Well, the vodka's about done, and so is the video.  I guess that's enough for now?  Yeah...