Another chilly day

Here I am, in this house, listening to Spongebob behind me, and I'm ready for anime and fame... well, I have some anime to watch... but still working on the fame.

Why does my wife always call when I'm writing these?  It's like she knows what I'm doing, and she doesn't like it...

Well, my boy decided that it would be a good idea to cover himself in the juice from the fruit cup, so he's in the bath... Claims he's cleaning himself up, but I know he just wants to play.  I think I'll make tea and watch that Anime...

By the way, not like anyone is actually reading these, but if you are and care to know, I'm planning on launching a web comic this january... no idea where I'm going with it, but it'll be rude, adult oriented, and who knows what else...

Interesting Narrative?

I used to bartend.  Yup, I was a bartender.  I had so much fun as a bartender.  I also had the keys to the room with all the promotional crap we used to get from the beer and liquor reps.  We used to host nights for the college students of E-town college.  It was great!  Busses would run from 9pm until 1am, and college seniors and juniors would all come out and get drunk and have a night out!  It was so much fun.

So my plan was to grab a whole bunch of T-shirts and stash them behind the bar.  Then, all I needed to do was wait for the right girl who would ask about the T-shirts sitting there.  I would quickly explain, as though not really interested, that I had free T's to give out to anyone who flashed that bar.  Two dozen shirts later, I spend nothing for free shots for tit flashes, and I get more than enough for the night.  

Okay, so really, is there ever enough?  This is what I miss about tending bar.  Well, one of the things I miss.

So...funny shit!

I wrote my editorial post for the day.  It's about religious intolerance against gays, soldiers, and pretty much every thing else in the world.  Eh, some people just need to relax and realize that the world is what you make of it.  If you hate everyone, then you'll probably spend most of your days just wasted on hate.

Well, I'm trying not to let shit get to me today.  I have to clean my bedroom... and i want to work on the mask thing.  I wonder if I should take down the x-mas decorations today.  It's always a huge pile of drama around here.

And I love my new vacuum... did I mention that yet?

This is post #270

wow?  no, not really.

So, it's really cold and windy out there... it's somewhat warm on this end of the house.  I have to get this place looking like it's livable in a day... (not that our house is that bad, we just have so much stuff in this little apartment.  Really could use some place at least twice this size.  Or a place this size with a basement)  I've been trying to catch up on dishes while I cook, but the kitchen is freezing!  I vacuumed the steps, something that I don't think has been done since we moved in.

The best is yet to come... our bedroom is the dumping grounds for the apartment.  you have no clue the shit that's up there!  I don't even know!  I wonder what color the carpet is up there.  I haven't seen it in ages!  Goal tonight, catch up on porn and clean the bedroom after the kids go to bed.  and a template for masks would be good, but that may have to wait for a day or two.

So, sipping chai tea that i'm not supposed to be having (but what I was thinking was cutting back to only about 2 cups of black tea a day.  That seems fair, right?) and looking at all the toys wondering where the hell am I going with all these damn toys?!

I got a new vacuum!

No, seriously, I got a new vacuum.  I mean, I know that it was for my wife and I, but how often will she really use it?  I'm happy about it though!

Of course, now I want to clean and vacuum everything!

I need to get back to writing.  I sort of took a week off, and now I'm back to normal life.  I mean, I still don't have a job, but I think that's normal these days.  On the upside, I've been thinking about maybe I should start my own catering business.  Why not?  I could cook for a few hundred people at a time, and I know a few people who would help out.  I think I'll start working on a plan.  I need some sort of menus and prices first.  Okay, clean, write, then menus.  Or something like that.

Baked out...

Way too many cookies?  Well, should I be able to eat them like I once did... but alas... so I wonder what my chances are that I could watch dr who as we await Santa tonight?

Okay, that's about it... i'm pretty tired.  It's been a long day already, and I'm terrified to see what tomorrow will have in store for me.  ugh

Merry Christmas! (almost!)

I was thinking about the movie of my life...

So, just wondering, but what kind of music would you like to accompany your life done on film?  Me, I was thinking with starting out with something like moonlight sonata (Beethoven) and then move into some industrial techno with a bit of death metal now and again.  There would be a return to Beethoven somewhere in the late teen years, and then more of a goth industrial side for the first twenties.  Now, a blend of industrial, blues and more Beethoven...

I guess when it really comes down to it, I'm just saying that there had better be some Beethoven in my movie!

I'm done making a huge tombstone for the Dickens show tomorrow night... all I have to do is paint it... I feel like the fx department from the original star trek, trying to hope the paint dries before the cameras roll!

Okay, so now that I taped the desk from pinching my wrists, and I've eaten cookies that I shouldn't be... I'm going to watch something and make a scarf...

Things yet done...

Today was spent mostly in the kitchen baking cookies, but due to a problem with my guts that I feel I can no longer ignore with the amount of pain that it causes, I didn't eat a single cookie.  (You have no idea how hard it was not to swear in that sentence.)  So I sit here, happy that I could eat toast and a sandwich today without agony ensuing... and I'm sure you care, right?  Eh... I never care about this shit when people tell me about it happening to them.

So, instead, I baked dozens of cookies with no reward.  Well, maybe in other ways... ha!  who am I kidding.

Well, now the children have gone to bed, and I'm here in my... well, I'm gonna put the robe on soon since it's cold, and I'm gonna get a little writing done before I have to get some sleep... oh, and I need to make a tombstone...

So, three shows in a row, and then a break for a few days... two more shows left, and then I'm off from shows for a couple of weeks.  Good deal.  Been busy the past few days.  Now, I want to scarf cookies and milk... but that's not going to happen.  Well, maybe not.

I was also thinking about how much fun it would be to be drunk!

Okay, really, I got jack shit that I feel like writing about!

I keep forgetting to title these!

Seriously, I keep thinking that I will come up with a groovy title once I finish typing these, and I always just forget.  Okay, so I posted a title first!  Ha!

I'm going to try to get some writing done before I have to do a show tonight.  I need to come up with dinner for the kids, too.  You know, this is where I normally think, "I want a cheeseburger."  But I really don't.  My wife keeps bringing home these cheeseburgers that are as big as my head because she and all the little kids she works with think it's funny.  Well when I fall over dead of a heart attack, we'll see who's laughing... or maybe that's the idea...

Passing that one... Tonight is another Nutcracker Murder Mystery where I play the dashing (drunk) and lovable (grumpy) Candy Cane Man from Russia... Best show ever as this character was the night that this hairdresser saloon team all booked, and they were in the one room by themselves.  The older woman, the owner of the business I was told, thought I was the cutest thing in the whole world.  She also had this low cut black sequined top that showed several inches of her more than plump cleavage.  (Really, I was thinking to myself that if that was what I would have to look at when going for a hair cut, I would go more often.)  She was taller than me, as most women are, and so she loved to give me great big hugs... I left with imprints of sequins on the sides of my face that night.  Since then, I have vowed to love hairdressers!

Okay... time for lunch.  Something healthy.  Maybe some fried onion rings?  I have sauce!

So... learning all sorts of shit today.  1... if you mention the word "junk" to my son, he wants to show you his!  Today he dropped his pants and showed me his junk when asked what he did with his junk.  (I was talking about his toys.)

2... when taking a shower, be sure that the children have been properly restrained.  This way, you don't come back into the room they are playing to find that they have found scissors and decided to remove pieces of the girl's hair.  And your chances of finding that the children have painted the wall and carpet with nail polish will be greatly reduced.  And they probably won't have found the camera! (i just wonder how my son finds this shit!  I mean, I wouldn't have found any of this on my own!)

3... Man... it is cold!

And there was my day.  what a day.  These kids... oh these lovely little children... make me look forward to death or the day they head off to college!

Another Biting Cold Day

Holy shit it's chilly!  I mean, I get it, it could be a lot colder.  Even still, I would love a fireplace to warm up this bloody apartment.  Eh, so my toes are cold, and really that's the issue.

Second point about the cold day:  Ever get in the shower, and no matter how much you think it should warm up in the bathroom, it's just freezing when you step out of the shower.  You feel like a turtle and everything that can shrinks... you know.  So you dry off as as fast as you can, and get dressed only to realize that your ass was still a bit on the damp side.  By that time your stuck with an uncomfortable damp ass.  I mean, you can't re-dry it since now it's made your underwear damp... so unless you change clothes, your just stuck with the damp.  And if you sit, it warms up, but when you get up, you have a cold ass.  I guess you could put a hair dryer down your pants... wish I had thought of that earlier.

Oh well, so here I am wishing for warmer slippers, drinking hot tea, about to work on some writing.  Not sure what to work on exactly, but probably the new story for a bit, and I have the editorial to put up today.  Then maybe write some porn.

Well, here I plunge into the warm bosoms of creativity!

Cold day... See, this is what I meant by the damn climate zones.  If it's going to precipitate, then it warms up around here.  Now, no rain or snow in the forecast and it's back to below freezing.  Brrrr!  It's just not cool of the weather, is all I'm saying.

But, enough of that.  I got to watch Black Adder X-mas special today!  Ah, it is a treat.  So, I put up an item on my Etsy site!  Excited to see if anyone is interested in the kilts.  We'll see!  I'm just curious if it'll be worth my time.  And now, with some warm tea and a desire to stay on this side of the house because it's just a little warmer her, I'm going to get some work done with the "continents" story.  I told my wife's son about it, and he told his friends, and now I have a bunch of kids wanting the story.  Wonder how fast I can finish it?  Can I keep them interested until it's ready to publish?  It's probably the first story I'll finish that would be appropriate for younger kids.  Seriously, no sex or vicious bloody murder... just a good, fun adventure!

Okay, off to the sky high world...

I wanted to say...

Well, I was going to post something earlier, but I didn't.  So here I am to post now... but what to say?  No.  Nothing...

Weepy wine

Been a day... so here I am, typing a post... really the only writing I'm likely to do all day.  Now, it's holiday wine and waiting to make more x-mas cookies and decorations.  In the background plays Muppet's Christmas Carol.  Okay, I'm going to drown my tears in holiday activities...

Really, that's all I got today...

checking off the things I miss

When I grew up and every year since until last year... no, not there.  Not starting there.   Okay:  So it's not secret that I speak to no one in my family, really.  I mean, I've become friends with a few of my cousins on facebook, but isn't that the idea.  It's so impersonal.  I mean, I've tried to make it personal by emailing via FB, but it's not a correspondence type of environment outside of stupid videos and mentioning shit you want people to just praise you on randomly.  Okay... so I have no family of my own.

My ex-wife's family is a bunch of fuck wads... well, not all of them, but there really wasn't any love between us and them, you may say.  I felt unwelcome, unliked, and I was sure it was a relief when I left.

My wife's family now was very nice to me.  They seemed to be kinder and may have even liked me a little.  But as of this past T-giving, I'm pretty sure that's fucked.  (too long to really go into... perhaps later.)  They tried, and I was on my best behavior... but when you get comfortable, you start to kinda let yourself be a little like yourself... well, I'm evidently a little too on the edge to be liked...

Okay, so one check for a place to feel welcome for the holiday....

I suppose add a check for a family to wish warm holiday greetings upon...

(that's 2 checked off)

Of course, this is the first X-mas in my life since I was 17 that I don't actually have a job...

(3)

---I was going to say something about the eggshells I have to walk on when it comes to decorating... but that's evidently not even notice around here...

okay, and back to where I was going to start... the tree.  I grew up with a live tree... when I moved out and lived alone, I bought a tree.  I had a tree when I married the first time.  It was always important to me, so despite my ex wife having never done the real tree thing, she agreed to have one...  Last year my wife now pushed about the tree thing because evidently it is such an abomination to have a real tree because of all the needles and cleenup and work and... i'm not sure if there really is much else.  Even her son doesn't want a real tree.  I was upset last year about it, and a few days before x-mas she bought a little $10 live tree... and I just wanted to throw it through the window because I felt that she just missed the point in the first place... and this year her exact words were "i just assumed... that we were putting up the fake tree..."  So it is up...

(4)

I struggle like fucking mad to keep myself from getting depressed and mopey through this season as I contemplate all that I miss about this holiday.  I try to do those inane things like "focus on what you have" and "think about those less fortunate" but what can I do with that really?

Okay, I know that somewhere this will bite me in the ass that I fucking wrote this, but I have little else to do but write to the virtual world of the PC/net that I imagine in my mind that anyone gives two fucks about me out there...  and a whole fucking strand of god-damned lights are out, and it's those little shits that you just pitch rather than try to fix unless your Mr.A...

Okay, I'm done... for now.

Quick one-off

Getting my ass in gear... well, sort of hard because my personal clutch keeps slipping in second.

Well, I just wasted a whole bunch of time finding and downloading songs that I want to put on cd!  Some one has to buy me Hatsune Miku cd for x-mas... okay, not I have to pee and get ready to leave!

bye for now!

Lazy morning, even though I did manage to get the car working again.  Strange thing, that.  But it's working.  Then I came in, posted my story, and then went back to bed.  Nice morning.  Up again, fed the kids lunch and I'm debating a late shower.  Yes... will do at some point.

There's a rehearsal tonight.  I'm looking forward to going in a car that uses.... ITS FUCKING SNOWING!  FUCK YES!  THERE ARE FLURRIES!!!  Sorry, I got excited there for a second.  Where was I?  Oh, yeah, the car is working that used a gallon over about 28 miles as opposed to the jeep that uses a gallon over about 16 miles.  This pleases me... Though, I evidently need to put gas in the car.

ugh.... and gas prices are ridiculous!

In other news, I posted another piece of the porno world story.  It's a chunk of not porn before a quick scene, but I'm trying to write a story, too, so deal with it!

Okay, well, I'm about done my tea, so I guess I'll do something other that sit here flipping between this and porn and get a shower.  Then maybe I'll bake cookies, try to write something, and off to rehearsal.

off!

Specials... not the short bus kind!

My daughter just walked up to me and said, with a french fry in her mouth, "stuck."  I asked if the french fry was stuck, and she nodded.  I told her to eat it.  She nodded and walked away.  Yup, cute.

Today was focused on cleaning the apartment.  Not that it needed much more than putting toys away and a quick vacuum, but the kids have a lot of damn toy!  Man, that was nuts.  And of course, whenever I clean their room, I find a half dozen cups that they "lost" before.  Okay, so now I have dishes to do and that's about all for today.

Tonight may bring me to drinking wine and watching x-mas specials!  Charlie Brown is on tonight, and Eureka special!  Fuck yes!  I am looking forward to this.  I'm also thinking of working this webcomic idea that i've thought over for years now.  I sort of started one once, but never really did anything with it due to issues with getting my scanner to work.  But I have other ideas... maybe I can get them to work.  who knows... maybe I'll work with it.

On the upside, there's still cupcakes to be had... and maybe ornaments to make!  yes... that's what I'm going to do!

Totally distracting...

So I suppose in keeping the idea of continuing this blog... i'll keep writing on it.  To quote Buddy from Night Court: "I'm feeling much better now!"  Of course, now I am watching and listening to the coolest thing.  This is some crazy virtual Pop Star in Japan!  It's awesome!  I started watching the whole concert last night, and am continuing now... Distracting, but so cool!

For now, I'm working on a story that I think might be my next novel!  Not wanting to spoil anything, but I will say now that it's very Anime inspired and the tentative working title is "Continents in the Sky."  Not sure if that will stay, but it's what I named the file!  Pretty cool and on the sci-fi side of things!  I also want to work on more of the porno world stories... but it's  not as much a priority as some other things.  I would love to post a weekly update, but I'm just so busy with everything else I really need to work on when I get time at the computer.  I need a little computer that translates my voice into text for me!  I know it exists, and if you buy it for me you'll never need to buy another one of my books ever again!  I would hook you up for life!

This, of course, makes me worry about what will happen to the world of published books as time goes by.  With all the virtual shit out there, how many people are more concerned with the idea of just having one little tiny card sized computer that does it all without ever needing to carry books around.  Maybe I'm an antique myself, but I love the feel of a book when you read it!

Okay, maybe a good subject for my editorials...?

I'm off to write and listen to the woman who never existed!

Wow, what a ride that was!

Once upon a time I started this blog to just rant about work and life and writing in conjunction with one of my first websites.  Well, then my life turned in a tough direction and I think I went a little mad.  The best part of this time of insanity is that I wrote "The ElaStic" about my sick and twisted imaginative therapy.  I needed to stop writing that when I stopped, and that's a story I still refuse to share. (sorry)  But right after, sparked by a drunken conversation during that bad time, I started "Deus Ex Machina."  So, it sucked a lot, but good things came of my mild dementia.

Today things are hard, but I think I'm better put together now that I was ages ago.  One line that I kept repeating over and over was something Rob told me once: "nothing worth doing is easy."  Yup.  Still stands true.

So I'm trying as I always am to make something from nothing.  I'm also trying not to turn up the heat in this house, so I have a blanket over my shoulders.  My fingers are cold though.  Well, like other buried treasures of days long forgotten, I'm happy to have found this, and I think I'll keep it moving.  So, from time to time I'll post something here again.  You know, when I figure there is something that is worth posting.